Due to recent events, I’ve been struggling significantly with my mental and physical health. I’ve had severe anxiety, panic attacks, shaking, poor sleep, throwing up and have been physically unwell as a result.
I was threatened by my mum after releasing my care documents and creating a snippet page to show what I went through as a child. She attempted to shame me using private things I had shared with her in confidence as a son, and has previously threatened to disclose those things publicly.
I made it clear that if she wishes to pursue legal action, she is free to do so. I was previously advised by the council and social workers that I am within my rights to publish my own care records if I choose.
I already struggle with day-to-day life due to inadequate support and ongoing failures within the NHS, which much of the PTSD-related content on this site is based on. A smaller number of posts relate to experiences I had with the police, which I believe were unfair and unjust.
I want to be absolutely clear that I have no intention to harass, stalk, threaten, or target anyone. This site exists as a platform for me to document what has happened to me and to process trauma, something that was suggested by professionals as a legitimate way of coping.
I am neurodivergent, and combined with PTSD this can make life extremely difficult. To help myself stay stable, I built this site to organise personal records and medication information. That material is now being used as a way to try to silence me.
I refuse to be silenced, as I was throughout my childhood.
This site contains deeply personal experiences. I did not make them public lightly. I did so because I felt I had no other option left. At times, content has been written during periods of acute distress, and I acknowledge that this could be misinterpreted when taken out of context.
If these events had not happened, there would be no need for me to pursue them or document them in this way. I feel let down by nearly every system that was supposed to support and protect me, and this platform is the result of that failure.