After a lot of thought, I’ve decided to take down the NHS-related posts and the video.
This isn’t an admission of wrongdoing, guilt, or misrepresentation. It’s a decision made because I’m exhausted and overwhelmed, and continuing to fight this publicly has pushed me beyond what I can safely handle at the moment.
This decision follows formal contact from the BRI about this material, and I don’t have the capacity to deal with their escalation to the police regarding my posts about mistreatment at their hospital whilst I try to stabilise. I feel like I've been bullied into submission to take down content which clearly show's I've been mistreated.
The past few weeks have taken a real toll on my nervous system. Between PTSD flare-ups, lack of sleep, and the pressure of having to constantly defend my own experiences, I’ve hit a point where I need to stop and stabilise rather than keep pushing on fumes.
Taking this content down doesn’t erase what happened or how it affected me. It doesn’t change my truth. It’s simply me choosing to step back before things get worse, and to prioritise my well being over continuing a fight I don’t have the energy for right now.
I may revisit this in the future, when I’m in a better headspace and have the capacity to do so safely. But right now this has caused me to self harm to the point where my arms are cut to shreads and I don't know what I'm going to do tonight to be able to keep myself safe or for the foreseeable future.