So after being in a shit ton of pain today, I think it’s’ about time I took a tolerance break. I’m not sure how long I could handle, but 3-5 days from meds should do the trick. I want to have drugs work better for me when I use them, and for the first time in quite a while I’m getting a bit of a tolerance to things. To be fair though, I haven’t increased my usage, I’ve decreased it. And I can’t quite tell both why it’s just been using less and ending up in pain when I could just be using more within my limit, and whether the increase pain is due to tolerance or the fact that I have mostly just been using less lately. My cannabis clinican said I should take a tolerance break every five months from tramadol for 5 days, but to be fair I’ve already done this about a month or so ago when I ran out of tramadol and switched over to diazpam for a short while - possibly a week. I’m gonna revert to using the normal amount instead of less and see if that helps over the next 24 hours and if not, I’ll do a tolerance break for 5 days.
I also had some weird amnesia when waking up this morning, and I wish I was talking about the weed strain. I couldn’t really remember the majority of yesterday and it felt fuzzy, all I remember was I was in a shit ton of pain for the majority of the day. To be honest I need to switch my tramadol usage to specifically using in the morning and evening, I’ve been using it whenever I feel pain if I haven’t had tramadol in the last 4-6hrs and/or more than 200mg in the last 24hrs, which is auto calculated in my apps dashboard that I made. But instead of taking it when I get in pain, I’m gonna start sticking to routinely taking it morning and evening, see if that helps. I just worry in that respect that my body might get used to/expect it at that time (and they say I’m not considerate to dependency .😂)
Anywho I know I was pissed as fuck from last nights post I wrote, I didn’t even remember writing it till this morning because of the weird amnesia feeling, was the first time I ever had something like that. Hopefully if I start keeping myself up together better with eating and drinking it will sort itself out and not happen again. Need to try get the house tidied up in time to put Christmas decorations up when I get paid in a week. Not gonna do anything to major, but I never really bother with decorations so thought I should this year, hopefully Marley doesn’t pee on the fucking tree again. 😆🎄