So after a lot of back and forth, I decided to finally publish the page I have written up currently for Rebecca. I haven’t finished this no where by a mile yet, but I figured it was better to finally have it online than just sat in my notes. I haven’t yet finished the syntax for including including one blog post across many profiles but like everything I’ve found with this blog, pushing the boat out and getting something online gives way to me making updates quickly that follow later. It was oddly my cannabis clinican that gave praise to me putting this site online that made me rethink my doubts about having it online, as I had recently been considering whether it was a good idea or not. But after having explained to her the purpose of it and the fact that I had been silenced for quite some time when it comes to things that have happened to me, she was definitely encouraging in keeping going with it. Compared to my other methods of retribution, it’s defiantly not as wreckful.
Considering my parents will probably try report what I’ve published again to the police, I should get my site moved over to runonflux however I don’t see any reason the Cloudflare would currently terminate the domain, so I’m cautious about making the move unnecessarily. I’ll probably look at trying to have a failover DNS with runonflux’s CNAME that would only rotate over if Cloudflare was to terminate access. I doubt they’d straight drop the connection though and would probably put up service terminated page, so it might be a good idea to have a python script running that sends a API request to my domain registrar to rotate the DNS server if it isn’t able to fetch a specific token that I put on the homepage.
Finally had a decent meal yesterday with Marley and cooked us a roast, haven’t been eating much of anything lately which I know has been making things worse, but my appetite has been few and far between so hopefully my Rosin comes in stock at the pharmacy soon as I’ve done a two month script of x6 Rosin Carts and 40gs of flower. Whenever I have to interact with MC services I just get PTSD from previous events with the police so having a couple months of script written up will help a lot, if it goes well I’ll probably look to do a 3 month script so I can just have stock sat at the pharmacy and not have to worry about it month to month.
Found that missing/having a delayed dose of tramadol this morning that made the amount in my system dip below 150-200mg really had a knock on effect to my pain when I woke up. Even though I’ve got a good system now for tracking my tramadol and drug use, I haven’t yet put a good reminder system in place for making sure I don’t miss doses which leave me fucked and curled up like in therapy the other day. Thinking about getting one of those desk ascii art things that you can program, so that I can get reminders easier as with my phone I don’t know why but for years when I get any alarms or notifications I just dismiss them instinctively without checking them, which doesn’t make for a good reminder system. Something visible on my desk would probably be better. Hopefully if I sort a decent meal I can reep the energy to get more shit cleared up as my place has had asmongold vibes for a while, seems like every time I get it close to finished it ends up a wreck again, but again just comes down to struggling with routine. Ideally I can get somewhat of a routine back again, it’s just when I have flareups it turns it to shit and makes me not care about keeping to one, then making it hard to get back into a routine again.